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    Wednesday, December 16th, 2009
    ohmegwosh
    11:49p
    And we've all come full circle...
    I received a very unexpected long-distance phone call a couple of days ago from a friend. The last time we communicated was approximately 4 years ago, and I can't even remember how we parted. It was probably unpleasant because the last thing that I remember was me writing a long email about how disappointed I felt and never receiving a reply.

    So when I answered the call, you could just imagine how surprised I was. But strangely, I didn't feel any anger/bitterness at all when I heard that voice over the phone. I had expected to feel all those years of pent-up anger rushing out of me but it didn't. Cognitively, I remember all those negative emotions. I definitely didn't forget them. But I didn't feel them anymore. It was as if my mind and heart were dissociated from each other.

    "I guess I owe you an explanation".

    I'd waited so long to hear those words but strangely, when they finally came, I didn't care for them anymore. I guess I'd resolved the hurt and anger a long time ago. But it was only after that night that I truly felt a sense of closure.


    More than 4 years have passed and here we are right now. When we said goodbye that night, all I felt was peace. So thank you, simply for calling.
    Saturday, December 12th, 2009
    ohmegwosh
    9:11p
    A working Saturday which didn't quite turn out the way I'd expected it to be (in a positive sense). The minute I stepped into the office, I was greeted with an immaculately neat workspace. My table was all spick and span, coat folded into a perfect square, stethoscope and file placed strategically in one corner and to top it all off, breakfast awaited. Seriously, my therapy assistant is beyond fabulous. And just when I thought that things couldn't get any better, the fun nurses and doctors were on duty today so I had quite a good chat with a couple of them. Before I knew it, I was done for the day :)

    Managed to squeeze in some cookie-baking as well, which surprisingly, turned out to be rather therapeutic. A newly discovered outlet for stress relief perhaps? Earl grey, lemon sugar and lime were the flavours of the day. It helps that the finished product agreed with my taste buds although the tray of crackly little blobs wasn't exactly the most aesthetically-pleasing sight to behold. But hey, that can always be fixed with some fancy packaging :p

    Looking forward to next week. Pay day, Christmas dinner with the colleagues and a dear friend arriving in approximately 8 days, postcard in the mailbox likely before that. There's even 3 days of annual leave as a pre-Christmas treat. What's not to love about December?

    Back to my book now. I hope this new one doesn't disappoint. Oh and if you haven't already read Flowers of Algernon, please grab a copy. It's the best book ever and I can't believe I only discovered it recently.

    I guess I really gotta trust that God knows our limits best and when you've reached the ultimate low-point of your life, the only way ahead is up. One step at a time, grace.
    Wednesday, December 9th, 2009
    ohmegwosh
    10:24p
    When you receive 3 missed calls (after office hours) from your best friend at work and 1 from your boss's personal phone at 915pm, you know they're concerned. Really concerned.

    I didn't return the calls because I simply don't know what to say. Words are beyond me right now...and so I turn to music, my sole companion in this deafening silence.
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